Choices...

Everyone has a choice in life. It just depends on the choice we decide to choice. A lot of us will pick the “no brained” choice. Then you have some who will pick the choice everyone’s scared of. What choice did you pick? Was it the right choice? Well I though I picked the right choice in life. The right choice to be everything and have everything I ever wanted. Well I was wrong. The choice I have picked has left me feeling alone, broken hearted, and stuck. Even though I have people around I still feel alone. I feel like they don’t understand me, and instead of trying to understand me they just write me off as somethings wrong with me. The only reason why something is wrong with me is because they never had enough patients to sit down and ask me what is going on. I’m broken hearted because I love with all I have and at the end of it all I’m the one sitting here looking at myself in the mirror telling myself I’m doing good, I’m happy, you got this. When should the person you love and is suppose to love you say these things to you? Isn’t your family and friends suppose to be there for you when your not strong enough to be there for yourself? Where’s my support team? Where’s my shoulder to cry on? I ask myself these questions too many times. It’s pretty upsetting when you’re the person that is always there for everyone else’s life falling down around them. You’re there to wipe their tears when they are sad. Your there when they need a shoulder to cry on, or even some advise. But wait... where is everyone when you need someone? No where right! That’s when I started opening my eyes and realizing these people didn’t care about me. These people only cared about themselves and their feelings. They only used me because they new I had a big heart and would do anything for them. So why couldn’t they do that for me?  I feel stuck in this world and it was all because I made a choice. I made the choices I though was right. Well I was sure wrong maybe next time I’ll know what choices to make.