I just want you to know that I’m healing myself, not for you but for me. I’m healing for myself so I can move on from this chapter in my life. I sometimes catch myself feeling so much hatred for you but then I have to remind myself that you never cared what you put me through and what you did to me so I’d be wasting my energy to even have any feelings or emotions to you or for you. I’m slowly getting to the point where when your name is brought up I don’t have flash backs of all the trauma. I want you to know that you tried to break me with everything you had and you failed. You actually made me a survivor and I’m way stronger than when I met you. I can truly say that you were the biggest lesson in my life and it will change me forever but I will not let it define me any longer.
I want you to heal from what you are fighting that you don’t speak on that made you treat me and everyone around you so cruel. I hope that you heal for yourself so you can truly enjoy life and not be miserable and hate life and take it out on everyone around you. I hope one day you truly find happiness and learn that it’s ok to heal from the pain of others.
you’ve showed me that you can love someone with everything you have and make excuses for someone who will never change because they are only worried about themselves and they can’t heal because they don’t know how to even be honest with themselves. I hope one day you finally heal but for now I am going to worry about my healing journey with this being said I am free of you and you are free of me we are no longer existing in each others worlds no longer. We will never cross paths after this year and it’s for the best.
